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Fear Factor: Ngeen Ann retention wall series~

Today, I finally conquered the fear of climbing the retention wall outside our Ngee Ann gate. I say finally because I tried to walk across the retention once, but give up half way and climb over the barrier.

Few day ago, Vincent and Liqiang went back to school with me to do project on a weekend and while walking to bukit timah market, we discussed about the retention wall that we are studying for geotech. Then we saw the retenting wall outside. I realize that the wall starts at a very low level slowly rise up and then down again. I suggested that we walk on the outside ledge of the wall as it is quite spacial.

We all thought that it was chicken feet.. Initial was easy and everyone was laughing away at the stupid idea that I suggested. Slowly on the way up, my hand unintentionally reach onto the fences trying to guide myself. So in case I lost my balance I can grab onto it. Although that's quite possible as the ledge was actually quite spacial. Slowly, I felt nausea and giddy. Turning over my head, I see the two of them already climbed over the fences before the 1/4 mark. I wanna show my courage so I proceed on. Then slowly, my testicle like slowly travel up my throat. My plam are sweating, knee's weak, arm are heavy. I then realize that I actually had acrophobia. Give up before the half way mark.. (at the bus stop there is the highest)


So today, I suggested to liwen and she say she would very much want to prove to me that she dare to walk across. I doubt she can do it. So we start off walk at the lowest part, till we hit the road sign.. You can imagine how high is it. But that not even half of the height loh.
Where I am standing, it is almost at the highest part of the retenting wall. Actually from the picture, it looks not so scary. Until you try standing there physically. A lot of motorist turned and look at us.. haha
Look at her face.. She was so afraid. Oh.. looks like a lost kitten. So poor thing. But in the end, we manage to finish the whole retenting wall from left to right. Yeah. It is so additive and we attempt to try walking across again at night.
We had to take a few photo and evidence that we really walked across.

Pose until like model like that. KNS.. still act like EMO.
But the scenery is really nice on top. This is at the bus stop. So call the highest on the retenting wall.Take another one before coming down.. :)

So conclusion is. We made it through. Don't think it is so easy like that loh. One day you all should try it lah. Super exciting lah.

Model yong posing for the samsung phone which was like N year ago production lah. See see, still got anthenne somemore. Now still where got handphone got anthenne one??
I copied this story and wish to share with everyone:

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for the money we needed she was such an embarrassment. There was this one day during elementary school.

I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed.

How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school..."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me.

I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time.

Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.

Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me "What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

And I asked her, "Who are you? I don't know you!!!" as if I tried to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank good ness... she doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.

Then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

She wrote:

My son...

I think my life has been long enough now. And... I won't visit Seoul anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school.... For you... I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine...I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young around me.

I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me.

My world shattered!!!

Then I cried for the person who lived for me... My Mother

"Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know"

If life is like a box of "Hello Panda", I really never know...

Hello panda is probably the best choc in the whole world. Munching them gave me the surge of euphoria. The other reason for preventing me from overeating them is that the knowledge of chocolate is fatty. But after a detail study of its nutrition facts. I found out that they actually contain negligible amount of saturated fats.

With zero concentration of trans fats and cholesterol which was the so call major concern of fat people. Therefore, I quickly picked up two different packing of hello panda from my nearest NTUC.

The reason why I choose different packing is that I really doubt that the 'can' package is actually heavier in its net weight compare to the 'convenient' pack.

So I decided to investigate into the truth of these 2 different packaging.

10 individal packets: 260g
Panda in can : 450g

260g pack looks bigger and weight about the same on my hands.
I emptied 10 package into the can container and I realise...
that it never even reach half of the can Zzzzz. Money wasted on the convenient pack. But at least I justify that the net weight printed on the package is genuine.
So after this experiment, I concluded that the 450g package is the best buy among all the other packaging. Cost $5.20 at your nearest Sin Song supper market. Yummy...
Wah. Finally I downgraded to window XP liao. Now my speed is super fast, booting into window takes only 30 sec plus no busy reading the hard drive. In the process, I lost quite a number of files as I lasy to back up. And this week end I can't do anything and project have to halt as all the programme are gone. Monday is the earliest I can get all the programme install.

Beside I can't do project. I have to spend few hours, doing window updates and driver installation. If I want it to perform better than the old vista, I need to optimize a lot of setting. If not, I might faces a lot of problem in the long run.

One typical example is I can't open docx format on the XP system unless I get it patched.

A lot of project still not done.. wah I really stressed.
Today I treat my RSP student to Sakae Sushi and spent $60 plus on the total. Sort of regretted sia. I think spending it on my laptop sleeve is a better deal instead.

On the way back from tution, mother called me when I am riding. I shouted her because she is too naggy. I was riding with one hand and answering phone on the other. That because why I got agitated. I regretted shouting at her. She was just concerning me that why she so naggy. I must change my attitude towards her liao.

A lot of project rushing to be finished before deadline but I am still interested in finishing my drama first. Die liao.. I really shacked a lot after year 1. Hai~
Attended 2 talks that 'supposes' to be enriching and useful to me. They turned out to be other wise. The long marathon for presentation skill were talking stuffs which I already knew when I read self improvement books. Basically after the 4 hours talk, the message conveyed to me was

"the only way to conquer stage fright is to keep practicing".

Duh.. Does he needs 4 hours to bring across this message?

But nevertheless, the speaker has a very interesting character and relate his point with a lot of personal experience and humor. Very captivating and keep think about all the moral of the story.


I suggest that one way to counter this, is to wrank it every night, as the blood gashing in will flush all those fatty deposite out of your vessels.

The second one is about quitting smoking. I never really scare or motivate me from quitting. But I am working hard on planning how to quit smoking now. Seriously, I am really planning now, trust me. I will be declaring my quit date after I plan out all the things. Will dedicate one blog for it :)

The ladies in front is the speaker from health board. 1800 438 2000
Among all, only I am the genuine smoker.



I lost the bet with Liwen about the traffic light button. I say that even without pressing the button, the green man will still light up. And to carry out this experiment, we took one side of the road each to block people from pressing the buttons. After one round, the green man did not light up when it suppose to. The people were very agitated by me when they had to stand under the sunlight and I didn't press the button. In the end, those people jaywalked across. ;P
Today, Limin say she wanna try the "Lychee Martini" ice cream at the clementi arcade's cold storage. So we went there and explore the newly opened store. We are surprise to see that the cold storage was located quite inside towards the canal. Accessibility was quite restricted by the limited public transport. We had to walk like a 10min from the nearest bus stop.
The store is super small and nothing to buy inside. And then we went inside the ice cream store to try some of the favor. Most of them contain alcohol. Like the 'rum and raisin', 'lychee martini' and 'xtra stout'. Costing a petite amount like $3 each. Reasonable.

This week a lot of project have to go back to school on weekend to finish them up.. Going for 2 talks on Presentation and smoking. Hope to gain something from it..

Actually wanna upload for people to download the photo, but I realized that I disabled right clicking on my blog... (if wanna upload please click on the picture to enlarge first before you right click>save as..)

Been busy with my drama so not much of updates. Today happy cause I attended the book prize for the second time. I shall pad myself on the shoulder and say "well done"..

I never receive any encouragement from mother. When I broke the news to her, she just acknowledge with an "Orh".. Nothing else. Shouldn't parents be happy when their children do well in studies? Not for my case.

Maybe the more hope you have, the more you would get disappointed. I think now my mother haven't had any hope on me already.. She used to nag at me when I fail my test in the past (like let's say 10 years ago)
Zzzzzz

I hate my school life, I going to choose OIAP and IHP over FYP.. I don't want to stay in school anymore, I wanna escape for these sick school time table.. If I am not wrong, Sembcorp gonna reserve space for me, I am going to walk through the selection. Meaning I will not be included in the top 10% or stuff like that. Dunno if it is true..




I am busy with all the project liao and now, a big arrow shot at me. Planning committee for SOE talentine. Something similar to "project superstar" which conducted through out SOE. So I gonna publicize a bit.

Title: Soul of Enterment
Cat : Singer / talent show
Date: Around Jan 09

If you are under SOE and interested to show off your vocal or talent, contact me..

I am a beer addict~~
COI event was a successful one. Basically, our job there is to look good, and eat good. There was a lot of big shot there. And I saw Mr Tang, I leaded him to the seat without knowing that he is the CEO of sembcorp. That is my big big big boss in the future. I saw him a few time already but I just can't remember his face. He was at the meeting 3 days ago yet I can forget how he look. Really STM.
I am posing for future gold medalist.
Haha, I hope my picture can appear in the photo behind me.
We look sibei de different. All the girls looked extra pretty with the blazer on. Put on weight due so many buffet around. Basically we eat and talk then eat and eat and eat. All the food around is so tempting..
After the event, went to chill with Shihao at Alxendra Villiage. We two sit there and drink Kilkenny. We really sibei gay lah. I need to lose a few pound because IPPT coming, I had to clear it by Sept.
Helped out the COI opening event and help to wrap gift and do goodie bags. After so many session we had finally finished. Mr Koh sponsored our dinner. And we gonna order pizza hut.

He intended for 25 person with minimum 2 pieces each. End up some of them went home, left the 8 of us. So basically our mission is to finish up the 10 boxes of pizza hut. To make the challenge a more difficult one. 20 pieces of spicy chicken wing was included. We ate to our brim. I even da bao 5 pieces back for my mum and dad..
As a warning to all student studying in NP. See, I believe you may come across this SET right. To rate teacher according to their performance. It was stated that our respond was kept confidential. And I suggest that you better not think so. I personal experience was that I offended my course manager when I gave bad rating to her. She summon me to the office a few times. I didn't turn up lah. I think she is super angry with me. And maybe IAP interview I gonna see her again. Maybe till then, I will settle the comments of SET with her :)