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不以结婚为目的恋爱不是耍流氓

至理名言,不以结婚为目的恋爱就是耍流氓。我到认为只以结婚为目的的恋爱才是在耍流氓。校园里的初恋都是在耍流氓吗?恋爱时候的交往就是试婚和婚前磨合,如果每个人都以奔婚姻的目的那还要交往来干什么?

结婚证就是对爱情的一种不信任,对于你爱的人的一种质疑。你看看朋友间的感情多纯粹,合折来,不合折散。你会要求朋友给你一张有法律效应的朋友证吗?怎么到了爱情就那么介怀了呢?

我觉得结婚就是水到渠成,锦上添花的事情。我觉得没有爱情的婚姻才叫耍流氓。结婚证是谁想出来的垃圾东西?平心自问,它的用处到底是什么呢?

Yeah, got my first full month (July) paycheck. My commission for the month total up to $2070 + basic $2050. I am happy although I am not the highest. Jonathan got $5000 + for commission alone.



 Due to the different nature and perspective I could not get so much as he give many cards per customer and plus shield plus loan. The full august month i expect to get higher as there is buffer from previous month and loan amount starts coming in. However, these 2 week I am quite slacking and AB most of the booth. Gonna buckle up till end of august.

Going to office early like 7:30 to clear my forms today. Hope good sale come later at TPY.


These few days chiong until I wanna puke. Very awfully chocolate. Shanghai dolly is not bad place to hook OL. Hee, Get to know 阮翠庄 at V2. The name I like it so so much. 翠庄,she really sing very well, so my first virgin flower I give to her. Hee


Recently addicted to anything that have soup. Enjoying hong kong style.

Passed RES

Yeah! I so happy that I had passed my RES paper 2 retake. I was jumping up and down in Tiong IBC. I so happy that I want to treat people to go Ikoi Japanese restaurant. Decide to invite the group chat people all go and eat!!





That same night went to Buffet town with Qinghe to celebrate. We had the oyster buffet and sashimi buffet that I always wanted. Finally, craving got satisfied. One more things took off my checklist. Replaced with a new checklist for this year. I am planning to buy a Honda CR-V before going to start RES. Hope my sales and commission is able to pull this off. Now the total loan ratio of 60 had kicked in, to buy a Honda I need to work super hard!




Love the work and the people working with me

This job is draining and if not for the people working together and the payout, I had given up. And I love my team CT lead my hansel, not like other TM so regimental. Kind of let us auto pilot as long as your number not too far off. I need luck for loan like seriously. I am the worst performing loan loh.

Since working in CITI i had been pubbing non stop. Someone please help me, too many distraction for all the DSO liao

The conjuring review

They said that conjuring is the scariest movie of the year. I was skeptical and went up the net to read the review. I always trust tomatoes review and they had a 85 rating. Not too bad i thought. One line within the summary caught my eyes, "the movie is given R rated not because of gore and violence, but purely because it is too scary."

I was elated and became so excited that i need to go watch it in the theater or regret for the rest of my life. Well it didn't disappoint luckily. I went on a crash date with estelle whom prospect me for survey at tiong bahru. I mean this really scare the crap out of me. The movie is breathless. It kept me anticipating for the moment of surprise but kept procrastinate the surprise. As you thought the "saw" director mocking you when you thought you know it all, but you don't try to guess his plot. It something very new.

Example the child try to peek under the bed, you thought the director is going to give you a scare under the bed but no. It just didn't. You are constantly holding your breadth. The air of anticipation is so thick you can cut it with a knife.

I jumped out of my seat a couple of times and bitting my fingernail all the time. I was so engrossed into the scene i swear out loud in the theater.

I am glad i went watch it. We both had a good scare. It really didn't disappoint.



I know we are close, better half.

Till today on the cab home i suddenly had an enlightenment. All the grudge suddenly got let off. The envy and green, the anger and all had been put down. End of the day the good three years had been spent. And you are still the only person who knows me the best. Am i a good person, are my family good and my character i mean it needs no explanation.

Right now i also see you are really in good hand. I hope the best for you. He is really nice and caring and definitely a person worth holding on and relay on. But no matter what, no one can take away the good 3 years together. Either from you or from me.

As for me. I am chilling out right now. I understand to build a lovely family, we need to have foundation built right. I am slowly but surely starting to build it from the basic. My opinion, its never too late. The right one will come alone when i am prepared. Who will accept me for who i am and who i ain't.

I am imperfect. I need my better half. While i am looking for her. She is also at the same time seeking for me. With love, my future better half.

Citibank end of first month

First month into citi. At first i was really weak on my paperwork. Even though my stop rate is good, my conversion rate is weak at the beginning. 1 week into the job, applications start coming in, but i wasnt monitored and given enough guidance to do paperwork. Slowly by asking around i got the hang of it. Soon my numbers starts coming in and i have good and healthy number of rc and cc. But then NTB still lacking. 3 weeks into the job i started to focus more on NTB and slack a bit on my add on cards. However end month my loan is really low.

All the clique from the training course had all went into full attack mode, all like total concentrate on sale target. I really missed training time. Ya. But i am not way slacking behind others. Me working super hard as well. My MIS is climbing slowly but surely. I managed to be in the 30+ of the MIS list. My aim before probation end is to be inside the top 20.

Jonathan on the other hand is doing exceptionally well. As his MIS crawl from top 30 to 7 to number 1!!! Top sale man beating all the other old bird!!! Claps. His comm must be in the 10k range. Congrats.

This job really isnt for a lot of people. U really need focus, concentration, time management and perservence to excel in this job. Nice place to climb up my cm data base.

Night blog. Love you.

IWWTS = I walking walking then suddenly

I coined IWWTS due to the previous post. Damn funny. One day inside the group chat I were asking the SYT (Sweet young thing) about what is TTYL. They asked me if I were chatting up with some chics and told me that TTYL means "talk to you later". Mandy suddenly ask do you know what is IWWTS.

I was playing smart by saying that it could be Integrated Waste Water Treatment System. Because in Sembcorp we happen to be in the project IWWTP which means literally Integrated Waste Water Treatment Plant. Nabei the mandy say it means "I Walking Walking Then Suddenly". This is what I say when I was in the trance speaking during my dream recording. It's like LOL.

Super "Ungram" Mandy, the pass looks like the maid you burnt to hell
Its joyful to be around this kinda crap person who do not care about image and she never fail to make my day. Thanks ar. I tiong xim eh! Or Limpeh mao ni ar! Wahaha insider jokes lah.



Yesterday watch the WWZ with Visan and Keith like finally I plead and I throw tantrum until like finally Visan agrees to watch with me regardless of head count. She never fails to impress me with her professionalism and 人生历练. She had spent 2 years studying Buddhism and when through air stewardess course. She is fighting so hard to fill so many mouths and she is somebody I looked up to. A whole lots of responsibility on her shoulder but her optimism just never extinguish. 

World War Z at Cineleisure
The next update will be the juicy one, which we went clubbing on the last day. It super juicy so have to save it to the last!


Jay One for Xiu Fen on our last day



I absolutely adore and love this lady. Xiu Fen is our trainer for Citi and she is so cute to look at, especially the eyebrown. She can be damn guai lan at times and fierce us for reporting late to work. Sometime when she scold us, we are really damn afraid. Not because of fear, but because she is so nice that we didn't want to disappoint her with our poor effort. She earned our respect on a soft approach. Due to her being angry for most of us failed CC test, me, Jon and Mandy had to stay up damn late to study so that we can pass our next test without disappointing her. It so so sad to end the training. 

Jay One for $88
We decided to buy her a gift nearing our training completion. We plan to  surprise her and we each chipped in $10 for this present. As she might be using it to listen to music on her Note and I though she didn't have a nice pair of in ear, we went to get her a nice one. We ended up buying a card for her as well. 

Shermine brought home and drew



This is the card filled with all our well wishes and presented to her on our last day. I was inspired by 步步惊心, I wrote her a chinese poem that goes like this:

第一最好不相会,如此便可不相见。第二最好不相知,如此便可不相慰。第三最好不相遇,如此便可不相思。不见亦不散。

幸福的表情
See the happiness face on her and the little baby in her is like so refreshing and I am super sad that day. I always suan her look old and wrinkle but actually, she is damn chio lah. When she is younger she super lookalike 林湘萍。





With these 3 nonsense people in class, not matter how tired I am, we can never fall asleep in class. Or I can stare at Xiu Fen 's eyebrown or Sunita. Haha

Visan imposing Shermine photogenic pose
Last photo in class, no limited to other party gathering!

I had a dream recorded in memo

Today I share the incident with the citi's wolf pack, and we can't stop laughing. I laugh so hard I sweated inside the aircon room in PS.

Basically, I had a dream. I woke up 6:30am this morning watching my drama, but then I fell asleep at 8 plus and the dreamt about something interesting. Alone the dream, I was woke up by my alarm clock at 10am. Hence the dream is very vivid inside my mind. So actually I want to take down the dream with pen and paper. But then I was too tired, I switch on my phone and start narrate the whole dream into my iphone using the voice memo function. I was speaking in the half sleeping and half awake tone for like almost 3minutes rehearsing the whole story onto the phone.

After that I open my eyes but only to realise "FUCK" I didn't press the record button. Gan stupid right.

So I tried to record again but this time my manage to say half of the story and then I fell asleep again.

The voice memo was shared with them over lunch and we all had a hell lots of fun, but I don't know why. For a cheena like myself, unconsciously I was narrating the whole story in English. You know sometime you in the stage of trance, you just speak alien language. Why is it so funny? Click below to listen.



Forgot my dream already...

Dream about losing teeth

I dreamt about losing my teethes that night. One by one they got loose and shaky then they just fall off one by one. Its very scary and i was helpless in the dream. Funny that i told the mdh class about lucid dreaming but however i didn't get lucid that night. Even if i do, its boring cause there is no one in my dream.

They say it is hard to remember what you had dreamt but the losing teethes dream is so vivid that i can still remember a few days later. I decided to google and decipher the meaning about losing teethes in a dream:

"One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxieties about your appearance and how others perceive you. Your teeth help to convey an image of attractiveness and play an important role in the game of flirtation, whether it is flashing those pearly white, kissing or necking. Thus, such dreams may stem from a fear of rejection, sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. To support this notion, a dream research found that women in menopause report to have frequent dreams about teeth. This points to teeth dreams as being related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine. Teeth are an important feature to your attractiveness and how you are presented to others. Caring about how you look is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dreams may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxieties. Perhaps you feel that you are unprepared for the task at hand. However, you will find that your worries are unfounded in most cases. Sometimes what plays out in your mind is far worse than what is reality.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth symbolize power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream may be an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the importance of what you have to say.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition or poor diet. This notion may still be applicable to some dreamers.

Other Perspectives

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicates that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks, rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

Many cultures, including the Hispanic and Greek cultures, believe that when you dream about loose, rotten, falling, or missing teeth, then it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if you are telling lies.

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money. "