get rich make me $53 poorer

Fuck!!! I spent money on in app purchase for line get rich.

I am doomed. So impluse, the urge just too strong to fight against. I almost got all the diamonds rewards for the past 3 weeks events. That will include getting A+ maxed out 25 for 100 diamond. Getting COCO S class for 300 diamond. I maxed my gold dice. Following the jackpot discount for 5 diamond each I got 3 Panda Nana S class for 200 diamond. I missed the S pendant promo but Christmas I got all christmas pendal for a special premier charactor deck. Almost got all promotion for diamond.

Before new year they launch the event to get special A and special S like the Princess Yuru and I spent all my 90 diamond on jackpot and didn't get any A or S. Then I so impluse go and buy USD19.90 for 440 diamond and open 44 times jackpot all got 10k gold. I buy again for USD19.90 and played 88 times jackpot!!!! Missed all the special S and 1000 diamond boxes. All give me 10k gold :(

I am doom

I am fucked up. Spend money on in app. I am lousy and I am a loser. Fuck u Gary i fuck you.

Lonely lonely christmas

Hi Blog. It has been so long since I had been blogging on my PC. I had always been using mobile blogging for 2 years now. And it is Christmas and it is liping asking me to blog and since I am at home on the Christmas I shall blog on PC.

You know it is the time of the year where I write about my new years resolution and review on the yesteryear about my achievement and it is the time. But resolution post shall be saved till new year.

This year Christmas is a stay home for me. Maybe just like last year, I can't remember. Christmas is a best time to stay home my friend say. Of course you can choose counting down and I do not lack for friends for that being a DSO, you almost can be sure that there are maybe 10 different group of friends celebrating and you are free to join in any one of them.

But I just choose to avoid. All clubs are full, expensive, packed and dirty. You cannot just go home half way. There will be no cab till like say morning where you are jolly well take the first train home. I tried that some years ago at Clarke Quay and I think I shall not do it again. Furthermore this job is taking all my energy away.

The closest thing that I come across celebration for Christmas is with Liping where she brought me to little dinner at Bukit Timah where I had my once in a life time best cheeze macaroni with truffles oil. I cannot have enough of that. I would like to go back and eat that.

Where is the love?

I think I am not going to meet any girl anytime soon in real life. It has been 3 years and I had not been attracting any local delicacy at all. Not a single one. I do agree I am not attractive and if I am to meet someone like myself, I will not be considered myself as any dating material. 

So sad but true. Maybe I should get a online girlfriend. But you know what, I tried skout, badoo, beetalk, lacanto, how about we... But you know it is like throwing out resume for job interview. I will never get shortlisted. I couldn't even get a proper rational responds from our female counter parts. 

Why is love not coming to me. I read somewhere saying that you can only attract love when you give love. I stopped loving long ago. I forgot how is it to actual love somebody. I couldn't love. I could have love. 

Speaking for love. Now I had enlightened myself not so long ago. Love is actually different from what we thought love is. Love to me is you do not want to see the person but you will miss them when they didn't message you when they normally do. Love is giving everything you have to them not even seeking for any return of investment. Love is you can fart in their face. Who could I possibility do all this to? My mum. Hence I love my mum. 

When you see a pretty girl whom swept you off ur feet. You want to see her everyday. Your heart race when you see her. You crave intimacy and you desire their every thing touch. You protest like they are your little toy and you do not want to share her with anyone, depriving her of freedom even with friends. This is no love. They are your desires. Your libidos. 

Love is complicated. And I loss touch to love. Now I don't even know what I am caring about. It is a family, a girl? A hole and companion or what. I am so fucked. My ethic, beliefs and mentality is so messed up. 

Scarlett Johansson, my dream girl. Just like Carl junior said "It is more than just a piece of meat"

One of my 2 faced shall be pretty

"If you are a two faced, at least make one of them pretty". I just came across this quote while watching The Wolf of Wall Street. Jordon Belford was faced with a dilemma between staying wealthy by working unethically or can choose to sell his friends out and retire with the limited wealth he already had. He chose where he greed takes him.

Not only with him. I believe everyone is a two faced who had 2 image, one inter and one outer. Even some people may have more than 1 belief. I myself have the contradicting view of life myself. I hadn't got myself sorted one yet. And it is about wealth.

On one hand I believe the more you hold on to something, the more you get to loss. (Buddhism teaching)

On the contrary, The only things that stands between you and your success is the bullshit story you are telling as to why you can't achieve it. (Realism teaching)

Very confusing. The world is coming to me in 2 direction. The inter self is fighting with my outer self. I just realise something. No noble man is famously rich. Seems like that is no nobility in rich as opposed to what the wolf of wall street had mentioned in its movie.

When life gives you lemons, you should make lemonade. 

But when life gives you vodka, you should throw a party.

Fuck you gary. Please wake up ur idea

Aftevietnam trip, back to work life. This is the last quarter for the year. However if were to consider champion forum then it is the second last quarter. I had a good chance of going but will have to focus really hard. 

Shit. I missed my tab 3 challenge by 1 card. Fuck. I am so close to taking home the visa challenge. Fuck duck. 

For this quarter they took away sop but need to hit 50cc a week to avoid going back office 8:30am everyday. The comm scheme is stupid and the corp card is a joke. 

Need to take selfie as proof working at the booth. After all the ntb fighter went sleeping due to the comm scheme. I felt one by one is waking up the fucking idea. I start feeling the pressure which is good as i need them to run for CF. it is a japan expenses all paid trip. Please gary. Wake up your fucking idea. It is a hard to come by chance to visit japan for free. You fucking duck. You are so close and why you always like to give up half way. You had a very good chance. Fuck u gary. 

I am playing game during office hour where people are doing 10ntb that day. I can't keep on doing this anymore. I had promised to work hard for work after vietnam. Please keep up my own promise to myself. 

Hanoi day 6

Good things do come to an end and i had my fair share of entertainment. Winter breaks in and i had to be back to topical singapore to focus back where i had left. 

Overall, this is one of the best trip i had since a ling lonn time because of the carefreeness of this non agenda trip. No designation no goals. Jusr follow our heart and travel where our heart wanna go. What is bring back from this trip is good things doesn't need to be luxurious. Every little happiness is hidden around you. Most importantly is that you are with the people you love. 

Live in the moment like walter mitty which i watched on silkair. Daydreamers should take actions cause life is about courage and going into the unknown. 

Many things were left unsay and undone. Make me regret not watching walter mitty before the trip to inspire me to live in for the moment. 

Had to really thanks sandy for being such a sweet darling taking care of me like a little baby. Don't let me forget the "easy dai kuan", the handyplus, the money management, the itinerary, peeling of pomelo and all sort all sort. 

Thanks tracy for pointing out to me things that comes easy goes as easy. The hug at the airport is priceless. Never wanna let you go. 

Wish i could have taken a longer leave. 

Dunno when have the chance to get together, 3 of us...

Hanoi day 5

Today is a long day, so much to talk about. I think this could be one of the most memorable day, though not in a good way. 

We took 2 motorbike and when into motorcross mode. Jungle and off road bashing. 

The terrain is a no joke. We had to climb slope with gradient and bash into jungle. Basically we are all over the place searching our point of interest. I did not know if all this effort is worth it for the trouble. 

We had to stop over to ask local direction and everytime we ride pass the local, they will stare and take photograph at the 2 urban ladies in party outfit. They are just too out of place here. They were rare sight for the local. The island seriously had a more men over women population. 

Journey up to the cliff and the road is not kind to us. Lots of humps and holes made me impress with vietnamese that there are no place a motorbike can't take you to. Give them a bike, they can give you a world. 

The view on top of the cliff is astonishing. Breath-taking i mean literally. My heart skid a beat when they run up the cliff as it is so close to the edge they could fall down to the cliff. I just felt nauseous as tye strong wind blew our us. The legs are jelly as we are really walking too close to the edge. I think i am having acropohbia.  

Trust me when i say that the photo can't do the scenary justification. The view was simplity stunning. You need to skill and courage to take any better shots. 

These are some shots that tooks us a long time to take according to sandy's requirement. Everytime they change position i just feels nauseous. They are sitting on the edge of cliff. Women can risk anything just to retain their beauty even if it is just split seconds. These photo justify the hypothesis. 

For me i just prefer a selfie don't need to be breath taking beauty shot for retaining my beauty. God bless me that with none to begin with. 

This shot is call 天涯海角

Topo the map for our next destination. But before that, let me take a selfie. 

I avoid taking on the cliff as it is too dangerous. The beach looks more gnetle. Well can post for a shot. 

This is a fucking work of a sand bubbling crab. It has tonnes of them on the beach covering hacters of land. This crabs are disgusting. I feel naesous looking at them. If you are the same with me you are suffering from trypophobia. Fear for pattern. Now the beach doesn't sound that safe anymore. 

Heading back to base back to hanoi. Took boat then cab then bus back to hanoi. The bus driver conned us up and then refuse to bring us to the destinated location. And they drive so fast and horn non stop and sway around and against the traffic. I am so scared. Today i had the guts of mine almost came out for this non stop excitement. 

We had to be drop off on a highway and walk back by foot. Assholes. 

The 2 kind soul still brought me to have my dog meat as promised although they try to avoid eating dog meat. Thanks 

Exchange rate is $1 16,600 dong. Hence 370,000 dong is around $23sgd. This feast is able to feed 5 pax. So dog meat is quite cheap in vietnam. Its had a strong after taste like mutton. It is a love or hate realtionship. I am the latter. 

Hanoi day 4

Today suppose to visit some place then go back to hanoi but the man who provide wrong information to the boat location and timing screw us up big time. We woke up at 6am but supposing to catch the 7am boat to iceland but we was taken to the wrong harbour which will not be operational till 2pm. Screw up. We had to take a 2 hour bus ride to another harbour. 

Halong was surprisingly a more colorful and vibrant city compared to hanoi. Took some really nice picture. 

This is a crop from a paranoma shot. I just love this shot. So many things and tell so many stories like that. Okie la. I a bit overthink things. Around 12 noon we take off in one of the boat to iceland. 

Okie. Now i realise i am not going to iceland. But goingn to an island. I see. 

That is a sky view taken outside our new hotel. The hotel are newly built and all facilities are working nice and renovation done up. 

In this island which is restricted to foreigner. I was told not to speak a single words to the local. Something like shutter island. When some local speak to me i just ignore them. Sandy explain that i am a viet named minh. her brother and i am mute with some mental problem. Ask them not to speak to me. Lol. 

We rent 2 motorbike and ride our way through the jungle to the mini harbour. It is like going thru an island to another smaller island. There were told to be stone look alike again. 

The boat stop over at an island. With only 3 of us. Not counting the driver. We started to cam whore. 

All the stone we took resemble some kind of animal. For you to excerise ur imgination. 

For the sun is setting. The sky gets really dark after 6pm

Head back to hotel to get our seafood dinner then head back to base to rest.