My though in having children

Yesterday I had a moment that reflect on the purpose for living in this world. My worldview tend to be very pessimistic but realistic to say the least.

Pleasure vs Pain

Firs of all, I had concluded in the past that in life, we should NOT be the pursuit of pleasure but rather the removal of pain. Pleasure like enjoyment to body and the joy in obtaining material are temporary. Once the moment had past, we will return to normal as no one keep having pleasure forever. However pain like lost of kin and physical hurt are long lasting. 

Therefore, my conclusion to having a "good life" is equilibrium of non existence of pleasure non pain at the same time. The most comfortable state to be in is to either feel happy or sad. Which isn't it as good as being "dead"?

That the reason I had been stoic and learning to remove my emotional attachment towards object and people. Without the pleasure from picking up there will not have the the pain from lossing it in the future. A bit leaning towards the Nihilism idealogoly. 

Everything is a wavelength

If we break down human into simplest state. An atom is the smallest particles of matters can are made but my positively charges and negatively charged proton, neutron and electron. This atom vibrate in a wavelength and therefore can be turned into solid, liquid and gaseous state. 

Since all our emotional pain or pleasure is all the tiggers in our brain wavelength. Chemicals like dopamine and endorphin are the chemical result from our brain perceptions. Therefore all things, events and thoughts are just energy and wavelengths. As for all wavelength if there is a peak, there will be the decline in returning to equilibrium.

Bring joy into the world?

Since I was small till becoming an uncle now, I always thought my mission in this life is to bring joy and happiness into the world. When I leave this world, at least I had made an positive impact to the world. How naive was I.

Now knowing that the joy I bring forward to the world will result in suffering at the other end of the world. Remembering that giving love to people had the end result of misery when the person lose this love in the end. I strongly believe there are will not a net positive impact to the world, When you leave, someone or something is going to be negatively impacted be it a loved one or a stranger, object or things will get impacted by your "positive" injection. As the famous quote, energy is either created or destroyed, its merely transferred.  

That being said, does mean I asking you to draw pain to the world. The pain inject is merely the end result of a "positive" being injected somewhere. So just maintain as still as possible, nothing matters as the up will only result in coming down. 

The purpose of reproduction

Giving birth to children, result in 2 result, they are either happy or they will be miserable. Therefore 50% chance to being miserable. But by not giving birth, they will be 100% in equilibrium, neither happy or miserable. Therefore this made me believe there is no real incentive for the person you bring to this world. For course there are incentive for us, be it to fulfil our so call "happiness" from being a parent or the old saying to have a children take care for us in the future. However I see it, that seems so selfish of us.

Arthur Schopenhauer was especially pessimistic on this topic:

If children were brought into the world by an act of pure reason alone, would the human race continue to exist? Would not a man rather have so much sympathy with the coming generation as to spare it the burden of existence, or at any rate not take it upon himself to impose that burden upon it in cold blood?

We can even find this view in the New International Version of the Bible:

And I declared that the dead, who had already died, are happier than the living, who are still alive. But better than both is the one who has never been born, who has not seen the evil that is done under the sun.

Is living really better than never being born at all? - Big Think

Everyone is so selfish

I am not saying people are selfish and I am not. In fact I am very selfish therefore I am able to read all the selfish act. And also note that Joe in friend once explain about the selfishness in selflessness. 

People are selfish therefore the accumulation of wealth and the invention of marriage as a weapon for the wealth. 

People are selfish in advancing in technology (AI, deepfake, social media, shopping platform) for the benefit for themselves and lets million of others suffer in mental illiness. 

People are selfish in advancing in human legacy thru birth without thinking clearly that they themselves had not figure out their own reason for existence.