We are already living in hell

We were taught about the idea of heaven and hell when we were young. We have to be obedience and be a good person then we can go heaven otherwise we will go to hell. For half of my life I had fear death as an unknown. Unknowingly if I going to go heaven and hell when I die or “when will I die”. 

After my half life, I started to think all these concept are just bullshit. To scare you and control you. I believe when you die, everything just ends. No heaven or hell. Which I think people are already passed is more blessed then people living alive now. Take for my mum, she passed so young I kinda think it is a blessing as she had been a very good person, kind and loving therefore she will enjoy herself by not suffering in this world anymore.

People saying, good people die young and all the villain always lives a long life. I believe people that is long life just because they are being punished in hell. 人间就是地狱.

There are so much suffering in this world. All the scammers to cheat your money, Big Med company to sell you expensive medical. Capitalism squeeze dry the pay for the new graduate. Big corporate (Grab and Amazon) control the livelihood of grab driver and small retail owners. People are just so selfish to stall all the wealth among themselves and let the people eat bread crumbs. I am also selfish so I don’t know what makes tomorrow a better place to be in?

My thoughts are very gloomy that even youtube ad starts to recommend me self help line. It is so funny. I think I am too free and I should start to do something to take my minds off all these thoughts.

But redirecting my thoughts doesn’t mean the problem will just disappear. I can just choose to work or get busy to engage in escapism. 李诞现在还会觉得人间值得吗？